Having a friend tell me it's ok to feel however you feel for however long it takes helps, but my heart still stings. One minute I am ok, doing my daily life, then I lay down, or have a minute to think, I think about him and then I feel like I am drowning in my sorrows all over again. This really hurts, and it's not about him, it's about me and how I am struggling to figure out how to come to terms with it.
Him being married doesn't matter, because when you don't know that you allow your heart to kind of soar and that is exactly what I did. I allowed myself to feel and enjoy time with him, I loved our conversations. Now here I am, trying to figure out how I am supposed to pick up the broken pieces. I know it will come with time, but in the present time, it's hard.
I am so thankful for the support I have, but sometimes I just want to curl into a ball in my bed and cry for a while.
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